Dear Blue

We lose the people we love because they were meant to love someone else. We lose them because we are destined to be with someone else. The real essense of love is not finding the right person, but in making the person we found the right one for us. It is not in finding someone to love, but in loving the person we found. More than anything else and more important than getting hurt, is our ability to learn from it. To stand up and take the chance to find love again...



I didnt blame u for treating me like that ... Just i feel the world is so unfair to me.. When u sad and cry who is there to be with you.. When u want to buy your favourite things who is the one to buy it for u.. When u have problem who is the one u cry to and share it with.. When u need money who is the one to give u.. When ur moody who is the one to make u happy... When u cant accept things who is the one to encourage u..When u cant sleep who is the one to accompany u till u sleep... U just know a guy not for long at creative.. he didnt do anything for u ... but you choose him... i been treating u so good... all this while u never think and appreciate me at all.. Sometimes when i write means my heart is hurt.. No one will know how it hurt except u.. because only u will know how i treated u all this while..Giving up easily is not me.. Holding and waiting u will make me suffer and hurt.. therefore i really dont know i shud give u up or not.. because all this while everything i do for u... i really wan to let u know i want to take care of you forever.. If u ever read this blog someday.. i hope u can think back of our sweet memories.. i will never force u to be with me again... i just hope u understand how i feel all this while.. i really dunno wat i shud do now... i hope u will give me another chance.I love u chia sin ying from the bottom of my heart. I`m worry that fucker just want to eat you.. and u so easily accept him... im afraid u will get hurt again.. thats why i always go to find you... one day when the times passes, u will realise why im so worry and keep finding u before.. this blog will remain as a part of my life.. thanks for coming into my life..

Someone that i love..

Dear Ying,

This past 4 months i was very happy and feel inloved when we talked to each other everynight until u feel sleepy(only miss 2-3 days in total of 120 days).. The first time i know you was from facebook... i added you and we chat few times and that time is very late i still remember around 3am in the morning... The first time i talked to you on phone was when u were at redang with your family... remember i told u i want to " pei you dao tian liang". Knowing you has changed alot of my lifestyle... I less go to clubbing, drink, and play my game ( I`m a dota freak everyday hang out at cc after work at jetty.. but after know u.. i less mix with my gamer friends) When i go arena, u would sms me ask me to accompany u chat till u sleep... i willing to do everything just to let u sleep soundly.Sometimes u would cry in a sudden makes me wanna sad too.. i wish i was there with u.. sometimes i said something scared u, u also will cry.. im sorry i didnt mean to scare u.. i hope u know it.. always at night u will tell me ur hungry... i offered to buy mcd ( <3 food) for u but u dont want. You told me u love to eat maggie mee kari kosong cos its delicious, you cant take cold drinks, u love to drink hot milo and lots more... you tell me every single thing about u... and oso u love me to call u gorgeous... i always call u bii and wish u love everynight before u sleep... sometimes u even want me to wake u up in the morning... Do you still remember all this sin ying?

On 13th Sept i take the guts to meet u at gogo ktv... i am NOT THE FIRST person to wish u..... but i m the FIRST and only person to buy u your burfday present 1 month before your birthday... That night at the seaside i dont know why did u cry... i really wish i know wats in your heart... When i kissed u, i wan to tell u that i love u... When i hold ur hands, i want to be with u till the rest of my life.When i hugged u ... i want you to know tat i will protect your heart from getting hurt... The last kiss you gave me will be my forever unforgetable Kiss Goodbye..

Ying.. you always cried to me... and i`ll be there for you... Now this time is my turn to cry... i have nobody to be with me... I admit i dont have the right to stop u from socializing with your friends... After everything we did, dont u even have a bit of feelings for me? Always i cant find u. u will straight away to call me, When ur busy in class you will take my calls even if you are busy... When u work, i called u.. u will take my call.... But now... everything seems to changed... Before i leave everything i want you to know that i love you with all my heart... I wish u happiness and good luck in everything you do... Im sorry after eveything i done to make u hate me ! Just hope u will understand my feelings... No more Wen Rou songs at night, no more Baby song... No more calls from you... No more sms~ everything NO MORE ! Someday u will realise how much i care and love you.. i hope you can give me a chance to prove my love for you is true. I love u chia sin ying <3 <3 <3

Unheard tears

Too bad i was working on the night my mum went for the beauty contest..my maid called me up and told me the happy news that my mum has become the first in the beauty contest again... before she got Miss Siemens 1980 and Miss Slender line 1986 . So glad i got a beautiful mum... love u mum~ my one and only.. i dont have a dad.. i mean i have.. but he is already not together with us ... since i was form 3... sometimes i feel other family is so lucky and happy... that is why im so independent... and thanks all my friend be with me... miss u all... and i miss someone right now... she is not kellyn! just another girl that happen to come into my life.... she so so so cute.. love ya!i wont be another love liar to u!

FREEDOM RaVe PaRtY EvEnT FoR NeXt MoNtH~!

Freedom is a state of being.Freedom is a state of mind.It`s about unique individuality. Nurtured and cultivated through shared experiences. Freedom is boundless. Endless.Freedom is for you. Freedom is for everyone.Freedom is what you make of it Freedom . Experience it

Venue : A FAmosa
Date : 29 & 30th of May 2009
Ticket : yet to come.

Ferry costen and Dj Tiesto is coming to party ur ass up . And few more famous overseas DJ all around the world... For more info pls ask from me.. Together we rave party all night long :D ~~Cheers~!

From the bottom of my heart U_U

It is so sad when the girl standing in front of you..... her heart does not belong to you...... and yet cant sms her to tell her that u like her.... bcoz dont have her number.... failure right...

" i am not a billionaire ,i cant give you every material thing
But unfortunately all i have to give you is an imperfect heart
But its a heart only beats for you... "

Tonight im so sad... have so many things i wan to say to you .But.

WTF ~ feel sleepy at arena today...

this week has been a 4 day streak at arena .... even elaine asked me.. you everyday come here....... not boring meh........... @.@ i actually didnt really wanna go there so much but because

tuesday my cousin from australia is back so i just bring him there to celebrate it.... ( won another chivas on a chivas purchase )

wednesday ladies night...

thursday? my friends came over to my place for pool.... then just thought of finishing the chivas left over with them 8.4 cm become 4.8 cm wakakaka.. because i theres 2 more bucket of heineken..

friday??? friend from mmu going there so just ask me along ........

and today i yawn 5 times during the liveband........ seems like a sleeping music LOL.. will not go so often anymore.......... unless someone got go ^.^ wat a boring day for me!